The changes have been fast and furious this past year. My last blog was posted over a year ago, and to be honest, I am embarrassed that it has been so long. I am embarrassed for a number of reasons, but most importantly, what this shows is a lack of follow-through and committment on my part. Over the last year I have learned much about my self, about finding my place in the world and about what that place might look like. Hopefully, I can share this knowledge with others who have suffered a head injury. That way we can all learn and grow together.
For several months I wrote this blog every day. I will try to keep to a schedule of once a week.
I should start off by telling you some of the things that have changed for me.
1) I am getting divorced.
2) Even though I was the one who left, I forced myself to acknowledge my role in the divorce, not only in terms of what I did, but also what I didn't do and didn't see, including the impact my head injury had on my behavior.
3) Our manufacturing business went chapter 7, and in the new reality of trying to work for someone who wasn't family, I found new deficits and these prevented me from being successfull. In fact, after neurological testing I found I was disabled.
4) A month after being let go from my second job I left my wife of 23 years. To actually leave, thereby quitting on my marriage was an absolutely gut wrenching thing for me to do.
5) On the heels of leaving I learned, officially, that I was disabled.
6) I then became intolerably clingy for several months as I began, it seemed for the hundreth time, to try and figure out what I was going to do with my life and how I was going to survive.
7) Lastly a cousin of mine was seriously injured in an accident and spent 4 weeks in a coma. He is a patient in the hospital I volunteer in and I visit him quite often.
I have learned a tremendous amount about myself from these experiences, and I will be sharing my thoughts here. I would like very much to have you visit when you can.
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